My Lifetime Story

Get me through

2012-01-13T09:02:00.000-08:00

Well, this is the first year 2nd semester for me. Full of challenges. New aim and expectations.

Motivations.. i need constant motivations.. keep me going, keep me moving forward.

With all this self expectations, it's either i'll gone crazy or .... couldn't think of it though.

and all i turn back to Him is : Joshua 1 :9 and Philippians 4 : 6-7

He will always be by my side. Praise God.

Go away storm

2011-12-25T23:17:00.000-08:00

How fast, it's the last week of December 2011.

come to reflect about the whole year,

first half of the year was totally awesome

but never on the second half of it.

It was disastrous.

It was hurtful.

It was heart breaking.

It was.. It was...

unspeakable pain..

All i want is a good start for 2012.

though everyone thing that 2010 is the end of the whole.

nah, no such thing for me. i don't believe such nonsense.

i just want this disastrous storm to end it here now before

a new year starts !

New resolutions, new goals, new challenges, new self.

i'm gonna do something which i have never have had the confidence to do .

Dancing, swimming, push up my

self esteem.

i don't give a damn on how other people comment on me.

i'm me i myself.

Coming on the next semester will be my degree sem 2.

i'm excited already.

oh but please God, grant me with constant boost throughout.

don't want to be hangat hangat tahi ayam :o

ok.

that's it.

Promise me after this storm, give me back my sunny days.

i missed it so much.

i wish myself all the best and good year 2012 ahead !

Loves, Eva

Hello December :D

2011-12-04T09:39:00.000-08:00

我爱的人，他死心了。

2011-11-20T09:56:00.000-08:00

回想起和你认识的那一天，真的很美好。

还记得我们电话聊了三个多钟吗？真的很开心的。

我们从来都没有想过，会有相遇的这缘分吧？哈哈

还记得那天晚上，我对你哭诉了很多不开心的事。

你就是一直在我身边照顾着我。我真的觉得很温暖。

你会一直和我说话，逗我开心，弄我笑得像傻婆一样！

渐渐地，你就一直叫我傻婆了。哈哈

之后我们选择了在一起，告诉你，我真的是很开心的。

我们每晚都见面，看戏，喝茶，吃饭，甚至是只是坐在车里都爽。

你在我生活里占了地位，见不到你时，心情很不爽。

看到你时，心情顿时变得非常好。

这是所谓的热恋中吧？

我对你任性，对你发脾气，都只是很想你重视我。

爱你，是千真万确的。

想你，是日夜思念。

你对我的细心照顾，你对我的每一样事情都是那么的真心。

我知道的。

可是，因为我的自私，我毁灭了一切。

我把你弄得伤痕累累，我没有珍惜你，我太过分了。

让你在黑暗中猜想我的心，让你睡不着。

现在你不要我了，我顿时觉得天都塌了下来。

原来，你比我想象中还要重要。

我无时无刻想起和你的时候。

我无时无刻想起你对我的爱

我知道你曾为了我而哭，我的心很痛。

对不起，是我笨，是我不会珍惜你。

我不想再错过你，可以再给我一次机会吗？

现在那么决心不要我的你，我好害怕。

好害怕我永远都不能和你在一起。

不要这样好吗？

再相信我好吗？

再给我一次机会好吗？

对不起，我真的很爱你。

这来那个三个月是我最开心的日子。

真的。

我不想让它就这样没了。

我们能继续一起傻傻的吗？

到底是什么一回事？

2011-11-15T22:19:00.000-08:00

在爱情里往往都是很复杂的吗？

就不能简简单单的吗？

我好累哦，孤独的一个人面对所有的哀伤。

你所谓的承诺我看不见。他已遗失了很久吧？

你真的是错的人吗？为什么朋友都劝我不要？

我还能相信你吗？我很怕你再次伤我第四次。

可是又知道自己是非常爱你的。好矛盾哦。

你可以不要在承诺吗？我不敢在期望。

现在和你一起的感觉一样好，我们继续这样吧！

以后的事，以后再说吧。

Scared, but still love.

2011-11-02T02:08:00.000-07:00

When i had take up the courage to let go, to move on, to slowly learn how to mange myself without you around, things suddenly change, change AGAIN ?

you came back to said that you regret the decision you made. you treated me extra good, you talked to me like old days, you care me more, you're just different.

but i've made up my mind. nope, i wont go back with you until you're really settled down. until you finish your exams your stress, until you really know what your heart wants.

Nope, i know what you're thinking. I still love you very much. It's just that i have to protect myself first, for i'm afraid if there's a fourth time of history repeating again.

I'm very happy with our current relationship. As a best friend that could go back to lovers or whatever it is. i'm happy with you now. it's unexpected. i know. we could get back together later on. dont worry.

Be yourself :)

2011-10-13T04:39:00.000-07:00

Creating the path that i want to go as a successful musician.

argh, but it's not as easy as i thought it would be :(

i'm getting a little bit unmotivated..

i'm getting too stress up :O

but that's what i love to do !

"Life is not about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself"

"life is about the choices we made"

oh well, hold onto yourself Eva, i'm sure you can do it.

you've already proven that you can succeed with distinction when you're determined and put effort. :D

Damn

2011-10-10T10:06:00.000-07:00

I can be tough i can be strong

but with you

is not like that at all..

i remember all the crazy things you said

you left them running through my head

you're always there, you're everywhere

but right now i wish you were here

Damn damn damn

what i do to have you here here here

i wish you were here

damn damn damn

what i do to have you near near near

I seriously need you... right now.. :(

IMY

2011-10-07T11:27:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU

you know who you are!

Understand my silence will you ?

2011-10-04T07:56:00.000-07:00

How's life ? i'm slowly getting use to not text you already.

Feeling better i guess ? well, i do miss you. but i wanna keep my silence.

until you realize what was really happening ? or it's pointless to do so ?

HAHA, chill man. we're all great now i can see.. :)

Letting go is never an easy path if you're too in love with that person.

But it's the best thing to do when you know you can deserve better than this. :)

oh i know, it's easier said than done.

I am working on it, but let me tell you this,

no matter what, you'll still find yourself somewhere in my heart, unmoved :)

Always the same, i know :)

2011-10-01T11:57:00.000-07:00

You never fail to make me smile :)

Hearts you.

Share joy, half the sorrow :)

2011-10-01T11:33:00.000-07:00

Yes, i'm really happy that i passed my Grade 8 practical with Distinction.

it's unbelievable ! traced back the first time i went through the exam, i was totally lost and fail. And now that i put every effort in it, so this is my results :)

or maybe i should Thank you for breaking up with me ? haha LOL

I SERIOUSLY thought that i'm gonna blow this second chance again with a fail.

Being not able to cope with my drowned emotions. Thank God, praise God.

well, this has proven that i can do better if i put all my effort :)

(Yes, i know I've been REALLY STUBBORN all these years !)

And hey you, don't you worry about me okay ? i'm doing just

fine. Leaving all the sad memories behind. Because that's not how one should live one's life :)

I will eventually see a beautiful rainbow hanging over waiting for me :)

So, you can do it also alright ? strike your best ! :) i'm here to support !

I LOVE YOU

Every moment with you is no regrets :)

Hong kong !

2011-09-17T20:49:00.000-07:00

Yeah, i said stay tuned for my Hong kong trip post right ? haha.. was very busy with the new degree semester. so yeah, now i might have a little time to summarize about it :p

Our hotel :)

kinda small.. but comfortable :)

and one thing.. the bathroom is semi-transparent !! ><

the first night we went to Madame Tussauds 's ! Nice :)

It's really nice ! but the weather there is terrible ! Super HOT !! cause it's summer there..

and i really had fun and yeah.. temporary forget about the sadness.. :) im sorry peeps !

i still have lots of assignment to go with :( you can see ALL the pictures on my fb profile :P

i really gtg ! :(

Xoxo,

Eva

Hello :) stay tune :p

2011-08-28T21:42:00.000-07:00

Hello everybody :)

have not update my blog since....... wee time. hahaaahah

have been busy with exams and practices.

finally everything is over and i just came back from Hong Kong for holiday !

stay tune for the next post about HK ! it was AAAAWWWWEEEESSSSSOOOOMMMMEEEE !!!

despite the HOT WEATHER, the trip was wonderful and magical <3

STAY TUNE :ppp

Waiting, commitment

2011-08-16T01:12:00.000-07:00

Worth it or not, the tendency of i keep on waiting is very high..

you want it few years..

i want it next year..

ahh, the reason is because..

after your few years..

i wont be here..

and i don't wanna leave here without being with you..

why cant we be together when we're here with each other ?

i don't understand..

it's driving me crazy..

you are driving me insane.

i know..

everything happens for a reason..

i know some thing are best to let go and wait for the right moment for it to come back

but..

to me..

every day that goes by without you is a waste of time..

you have to understand that..

you changed my life..

i accept myself as who i am more than last time..

those were the dark days you will never know..

far before you get to know me..

i was that girl who lock herself in the room..

lost her mind..

hurt herself..

zero confidence..

hate herself for who she is..

i was that girl who lives in the dark..

until you came by..

you showed me things that i've never met.

you love me like no one else..

you love me for who i am..

unconditionally..

you showed me confidence through your love..

i changed slowly..

acceptance to myself..

i begun to love myself, have confident.

everything was wonderful and magical.

i knew one thing i have not change

my attitude.. the way i talk..

it disgust you i know..

im really sorry if i ever hurt you with my words.

no point apologizing if i don't make an effort to change it..

but i want you to know that ..

now that you left me,

i'm lost again..

it haunts me again.

i really didn't why i could pull out the blade in front of you.

it was me.

i need you

because you're the first one ever i loved truly.

you want me to wait few years..

you want me to show you good grades, achievements..

it's really hard yo know ?

but if that's how only i can get back with you..

so be it.

i will take it as a challenge..

you wait for me..

i'll be back in no time..

i love you..

always..

You

2011-08-08T04:21:00.000-07:00

Hello

How are you ?

How's your preparation for exam ?

well i'm sure you can do it :)

i wish i can tell you how much i miss you..

see that you're happy, i'm happy too :)

and that i saw the truth in your eyes..

You still love me, no doubt.

But why do you wanna lie to me ? lie to yourself ?

out of familiarity ? out of love ?

stuck in between friend and couple

but never mind la.. i know you still love me then can already :)

but sometimes, i couldn't stand your sudden coldness.. :

sometime you're ok with me, sometime you're super cold with me..

oh, and don't even deserve an explanation from you ? great.

I'm just nobody.

Awkwardness ? u feel awkward ? don't bullshit !

WHATEVER.

this was suppose to be a happy post about you !

but heck ! you just push me off the cliff !

GO AWAY

New August

2011-08-02T06:29:00.000-07:00

Oh August, will you treat me good and kind ?

3 weeks's like disaster to me.

how i hope its 3 years now.. by then everything will be alright..

am stupid to pretend i'm ok and strong.

who am i kidding ? 3 weeks isn't gonna erase everything i loved for 3+ years.

you used to be the reason i smile every morning

but now you're the reason why every tear shed in the night.

hahahahahaahaha..

funny isn't it ? how foolish am i.

its God's way of letting me know he's not the right person.

but i want to hold on to it until its worthless.

swim, run, jog, cycle, tone up, feed up, whatever shit i can do to myself.

hahahhhah.. life is too short to live with sorrows and regrets !

but hey i wanna ask you this.

" what if i'm here anymore tomorrow, not even a last chance you can see me, what would you do ? "

I miss you

A letter to you

2011-07-25T10:42:00.000-07:00

I know it takes time to heal my broken heart

but all i can do to make everything better is to let go

As all these years i love you more than i love myself. Yes, silly, i know.

Well, i have to learn to let go of you. Let go of this love i have for you. For now.

My weary heart has it's limitations.

But memories remained. Locked and sealed away deep down in my heart.

No one can dig it up again. Not even myself :(

I know this is super hard. Because love can be wonderful yet dangerous.

I couldn't hope too much. Expectations are fatal on fantasizing wonderland..

Having faith is what i need now to continue believe that one day to come. Hopefully.

For now, i wouldn't get into any relationship. I would just concentrate on myself, studies and friends. That's it.

Now, i know i couldn't even put up my chin and look into your eyes. Heartaches.

It hurts to call you by your name. It even hurts to hear you call me by my name.

But i hope one fine day, i could look into your eyes and call you by name with a smile on my face.

And remember, " break up" and "divorce" , these two words can't be said so easily in a relationship.

I hope you will learn and grow up to be a mature man as years come by.

For yourself, for me, for whoever you're gonna meet up with.

Maybe i'm gonna wait for you or maybe i'm gonna just move on.

Your actions will show to me.. When you are ready, come to me and i will let you know whether or not i'm ready.

If you're protecting me from getting anymore heartaches from you by doing this now, i'd say Thank you.

But love is foolish and i always want to be the fool to love you.

I guess time will reveal the true love between us if we're meant to be.

From now on, we go on with our life without each other. But as friends.. a close one maybe.

I wish you happiness and all the best.

Loves,

Eva

Brown eyes

2011-07-20T07:27:00.000-07:00

Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye, my love

I can't hide
Can't hide
Can't hide what has come.
I have to go, I have to go, I have to go
And leave you alone

But always know, always know, always know
That I love you so
I love you so
I love you so
Oh

Goodbye, brown eyes
Goodbye for now
Goodbye, sunshine
Take care of yourself

I have to go, I have to go, I have to go
And leave you alone
But always know, always know, always know
That I love you so, I love you so, oh.
I love you so.
Oh.

La lullaby. Distract me with your eyes.
La lullaby. la lullaby. Help me sleep tonight.
La lullaby (la lullaby, la lullaby)
I have to go
I have to go
I have to go
And leave you alone

But always know, always know, always know
That I love you so
I love you so
(Goodbye)
(Lullaby)
I love you so
(Goodbye)
(Lullaby)
I love you so
(Goodbye)
(Lullaby)
I love you so
(Goodbye)
(Lullaby)
I love you so
I love you so

Goodbye, brown eyes
Goodbye my love

Say hello to goodbye

2011-07-16T09:33:00.000-07:00

What doesn't kill you

It makes you stronger

And though I'm going to miss you

I'll forget it and let you go

Say hello to good-bye

It's all over now, back to the days when we're madly in love,

it was sweet and pure and nice.

Maybe good things never last.. or maybe it will, just on how much you put effort in it.

thinking back all the good and bad times that we had,

i'm really glad and thankful i have you by my side :)

to be loved by you,

taken care by you,

missed by you,

cuddled by you,

it was really fun and sweet.

thanks for everything.

you know who you are :)

And that now you've made this decision,

though i really don't want this.

but maybe its what best for both of us.

to lay down and focus on our lives.

i'm gonna miss you,

i'm gonna wait for you anyway.

I accept your decision.

Is promise meant to be broken ?

Or we're just putting too much hope on to keeping it ?

well, honestly... its really disappointing and heart broken

when someone broke promises..

Still remember last time, when i watch the video on Youtube

"Strangers Again"

I really never thought that we will end up like that..

though we're still friends..

but the feeling isn't right..

cause i love you.. very much..

i know.. deep inside your heart..

you still love me very much too..

but you just had to make the hardest decision you've ever made..

I know how it feels..

cause i took a lot of courage to accept the fact that you'll be gone..

going separate ways.. not knowing when we'll be back together..

or never..

I do believe that..

If both of us are meant to be with each other,

no matter we're together or separated now.

If its us fated together, we will eventually be together.

I hope time can reveal everything as years goes by..

time can heal a broken heart,

it can also break a waiting heart..

i know i just had to stay strong and love myself..

and still loving you as i always will do..

I love you, always.

take care and all the best in your STPM.

I will do my best in my Grade 8 too.

not gonna let you down once more..

See you after your exams..

and then only we decide about it..

I love you.. Goodbye.. :)

Stronger

2011-07-14T23:00:00.000-07:00

Every disappointment makes you learn not to put too much hope

Every fall makes you have the courage to stand up

Every heartaches makes you stronger

Love makes you blind

Love makes you wonderful

Love gives you disappointment

Love makes you fall

Love gives you heartaches

Love makes you strong

Love can be painful yet beautiful

Your heart can determine whether you want it to be painful or beautiful all the time

Don't give up when you still have something to give, cause nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.

I still love you like i always do, i will stay strong and positive..

Hope

2011-07-11T23:46:00.000-07:00

I hold to the necklace you gave me.. still believing that you're mine..

Because that's what was written in the necklace.. Edward is mine..

Is this starting to fade away ?

is your love fading away ?

is your love changing ?

are you forcing yourself to continue this relationship and to love me ?

thinking back now, i only realized you've actually hint it somewhere in our conversation

but i didn't take notice of it until now..

you would say things like

" find someone else"

"find someone better"

"i lazy talk to you"

you wouldn't hug me or kiss me in the morning until i asked you to do so

"i feel like i'm treating you as a sister "

I really don't want to break up with you.

my heart has stop beating..

and im trying my very best to shock it back to life..

because part of my heart is yours.

I love you.

Don't cast me away..

You're all i had..

You're the best i've ever had..

I want nothing to change between us

2011-07-10T06:52:00.000-07:00

I don't want year end to come by..

because by then according to your dreams, you would leave me..

and that's the worst thing ever to encounter with..

But i couldn't freeze the time, its ticking day by day D:

Can i invent an machine to do so ?

yeah, i really can't imagine how it would be when one of us leave each other..

either for moving on life or for further studies..

ahh.. it's gonna be hard :((

what hurt the most is you thought of breaking up :(

cause of arguments and things never change..

you change for yourself, not for me..

i can accept everything of you good and bad..

why is it every time you're the one who have this break up thought ? :'(

I don't wanna break up with you..

I don't wan i dont want i dont want i dont want !! :'(((((((((((((((

2011-07-07T09:49:00.000-07:00

I couldn't blog ??!!

2011-06-21T03:53:00.000-07:00

I COULDN'T BLOG WHAT I WANNA BLOG !!!!!

Scar, burden

2011-06-14T20:38:00.000-07:00

Wonder why i abandoned my blog ? yeah.. too much bad things happened recently..

enough to be called as the worst nightmare.. though we got through it, it leaves a scar so deep..

the worst part is i couldn't tell anyone about it.. its a dark secret i'd rather hide deep under my soul..

i know i have to carry this burden within me..

the only person i can talk to is God and the one i love..

I just don't know how.. :(

Felt like i'm a two face person..

during the day, i carry a smile on my face..

but in the night, i cried all the time..

this is all i can do to hide from other people's eye.. isn't ?

I know i'm gonna pay for this one day..

i don't know how or when..

but i just know i'll pay for it..

for the wrong I've done..

Sick

2011-05-30T23:54:00.000-07:00

It has been more than a week i have insomnia.. due to worries.. stress.. i don't know.. my brain seems restless.. keep on going round and round thinking and thinking.. lol..

and finally im sick on saturday.. lol.. cough non stop.. fever.. vomit !! urgh hate it...

mommy couldnt stand seeing me coughing my lungs out, she brought me to see chinese medicine doctor.. ( for i can't consume western medicine.. i will be extra weak and shake.. lol ) .. He gave me 2 packets of some some powder for 3 days.. erm...

that night i drank it hot.. the next day i felt better already.. no more continuous coughing.. =.=

people around me who hears how i cough.. they really had a shock.. like some lung cancer or something worst.. =.= LOL.. hahah..

Today is the second day i drink the powder.. feeling so much BETTER already !! i sleep better now..

thanks for those who took care of me.. especially my MOMMY.. i love you ! hahah

Brain burst

2011-05-24T20:50:00.000-07:00

I AM STRESS OUT ! :(

Fighting this faith

2011-05-19T09:41:00.000-07:00

I saw Jay Chou !!

2011-05-15T08:34:00.000-07:00

13/5/2011 Friday 8pm !!

Ok ok.. Friday is the day i will go Midvalley for my job as a pianist at The Gardens Cafe. =)

i was resting that time.. then suddenly the manager said he saw Jay Chou.. i was like huh ? really ? but i din go out to see..

After that around 745pm lik that.. it was my break time again.. i went out to talked to my mommy outside the cafe. i told her Jay Chou is here in Midvalley !! so i was lik i wanna see him !! hope i can ! then suddenly i wanna go washroom.. so i walked to washroom .......

AND THEN.... !!!!!!! at the corner, i saw 3 person dressing different. there was one wearing white and black , he was wearing a cap and covering his mouth with his mouth.. one look i knew who he was. JAY CHOU JAY CHOU JAY CHOU JAY CHOU JAY CHOU JAY CHOU JAY CHOU !!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

and honestly i didnt even continue walk to washroom. i WALKED BESIDE HIM !! darn !! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH.. hahaha.. he and another two friends of his are walking to The gardens.. WA !! i could have faint !! but he kept very LOW PROFILE.. no one will actually recognize him actually.. but i recognize him !!! aaaaahhhh.. hahha..

I wonder if he heard me playing piano ?? hmmmmm..

MY IDOL !! FINALLY I CAN SEE YOU, XD

Love

2011-05-11T11:26:00.000-07:00

Stage 1 : Meeting

Its a stage where two strangers meet up together either with or without purpose.

two strangers get to know each other.

Stage 2 : The chase

Some said its the best part. All you want is to know EVERYTHING about that person.. find out their interest so that you can adapt along. hang out with the person.. only wanna talk to the person.. and the person will always be the NUMBER ONE in your life now.. and when the right timing comes.. just a simple confession and you'll belong to each other..

Stage 3 : Honeymoon

This is where two person truly confessing their affection to each other..

it seems they are the only two person in the world.. and nothing matters to them..

they will do what a normal couple will do, taking tons of pictures together, go wherever they want together.

Stage 4 : Comfortable

Eventually fire dies down.. in a comfort stage.. its when they could truly be themselves.. it depends on how you wanna use this comfort positively or negatively.. some would continue putting effort, growing stronger with each other or some would just make it create distance.. and taking each other for granted.. till the bottom line.. someone will stop trying..

Stage 5 : Tolerance

The fire could have died.. but just tolerating with each other.. arguments comes in frequently.. feeling unhappy and unsatisfied with the relationship..

Stage 6 : Down hill

The effort of trying to make things work out vanished.. and this will come to break up..

Stage 7 : Strangers again...

Even though after that you try to remain as friends.. but nothing is gonna be the same anymore... eventually the person will move on and find someone else..

Love has its own time, its own season, and its own reasons from coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you.. Be thankful for it =)

For sure no one can foresee the future.. be thankful of today and glad to know each and every new day =)

There is not enough words to describe

2011-05-09T09:10:00.000-07:00

WAKE UP EVA !!

2011-05-05T09:06:00.000-07:00

at this hour... i can only talk to the moon..

talk out my feelings, my sorrows..

my stress and thinking..

cant start slacking around already..

May..

June...

July...

August...

oh no....

NOT MUCH TIME TO PREPARE...

please EVA... i beg you...

CONCENTRATE

COMMITMENT

CONTINUOUS

practice

PRACTICE...

YOU CANT AFFORD TO LOSE THIS OPPORTUNITY...

THIS IS TOO MUCH TO LOSE.....

too much....

IF YOU LOSE THIS TIME EVA FOO,

YOU GONNA WASTE ONE YEAR !!!!!!!!

WAKE UP AND STOP SLACKING AROUND ALREADY !!

Pretty girls :)

2011-05-02T08:51:00.000-07:00

Happy girls are the PRETTIEST :))

so smile more and be happy girls, guys love to see us smile :)

Makaroons !

what is it actually ? nice ? i saw it in Viva mall today.

I had the urge to buy, but mommy say she dont want cause of the coloring..

well, haha.. nvm.. we will try others then..

CREAM PUFF !!

I love cream puff !!

Especially those from KLCC !!

yummy yummy xD

Argh, late night talking about food really make my tummy growls..

haha. my bad ! xD

OH ! tomorrow is the start of my last semester in foundation !

and so LET THE STRESS BEGIN peeps !!

We 're having our Foundation Jury Exam this semester around August !

but pity me pity me.. i have both Foundation Jury Exam and ABRSM practical grade 8

:'((((((( sob sob ! gonna practice till im MAD !

wait till im officially MAD, remember to sent to psychotic hospital.. hahahah..

but anyway, all the students of Sept intake. lets do our best for our Jury Exam, pass it and altogether we go DEGREE !!

oh oh, this reminds me of something REALLY IMPORTANT..

PRACTICE ROOM !!

need to fight and book for it already.. gosh.. :S

haha.. nvm la. i have a very nice and beautiful piano at home. no problem.. haha

alright alright , gotta sleep. Good night everyone, sweet dreams and take care :))

Updates updates !

2011-05-01T08:42:00.000-07:00

20th to 21st

I was with my darling that few days.. we hang out, we talked, we eat, we laugh, we do everything we love !

22nd

It was Good Friday, a very special day for us, to remember what Jesus had done for us. We went to church, worshiped and then we went home..

23rd

ROCK outing to Putrajaya ! Cycling ! woohoo ! well... i dont remember the exact thing already.. but just generally, we went there.. ride bike, talked, laughed, worshiped and sang. hahaha..

We had lots of fun, and its also a time for us to bond ourselves even tighter.. =) well, i know you will always be there for me no matter what :)

24th

Jesus resurrection day ! A joyous day for all of us !

oh oh, and its darling's getting baptized day too :)

26th and 27th

Went Genting with Devon, San San, Seng Enn, Winnie and Weihim.. :)

It's the most enjoyable sem break trip we ever had !

well, too many pictures to upload here, SEE FACEBOOK !! hahah

oh oh there is only ONE THING I WILL NEVER FORGET !

thanks to you guys... pulled me for a ride on CORKSCREW.. :'((((((((

it totally FREAK ME OUT ! it was my first time ever ! ARGH

can't even open my mouth and scream.. and thanks to that, im sick.. coughing already.. cold breeze.. :(

but i had fun, at least i tried something i never dare to ;p

but i think one night is not enough ! we should have stayed another night ! hahahaa.. i love night moment most, drink at starbucks, listen to free music from the bar beside.. enjoy the emptiness of the First world hotel... hahaha.. how relax ! lets have another time like this ! =)

30th and 1st May

I miss darling already.. haha.. as usual we go youth. worship and play game.. hahah

went church sunday morning, learn dancing ( darling teach me ) hehe :)

after that spent some time together until 5 something.. ahhhh..

TODAY'S A PARADISE.. love you muax

after that i went home, bath and went to watch movie with parents at Jusco Cheras Selatan.

we watched The Lost Bladesman starring Donnie Yen ! nice movie =)

Today lesson learned. "Do not judge others or you too will be judged " Matthew 7 : 1 - 5

to improved your relationship with your partner, don't always try to see and complain about all the bad things that he had done but try to see and compliment those good things they have done for you. SAY OUT LOUD to them how happy you are whenever they are with you. TELL THEM HOW wonderful they are. EXPRESS YOUR LOVE to them. COMPLIMENT them. It depends on how a couple wants to put in effort to make a relationship works and gets longer and stronger. USE YOUR COMFORTABILITY with them to do positive things which can gradually improve the bond. and NEVER TAKE EACH OTHER FOR GRANTED.

I love you ♥

Zero value

2011-04-18T22:08:00.000-07:00

I didn't know that i placed myself in such a low value almost up to zero value. I guess that's true from those who are really true friends of mine.. They said that i never change. I'm

always TOO GOOD, TOO SOFT.. Always think for others and never care about my own feelings..

Even how hurt i am till the extend of breaking point, i would care about others first more than

myself. NOTE THIS: EVEN MY MOM SAID THIS !! (i'm seriously in big trouble) I'm getting more pessimistic.. I'm not cheerful anymore. well, i do laugh and play around when i'm in college... but deep down i'm keeping hundreds and thousand and millions and billions and zillions of sad stuff in my heart.. and seriously... I CAN FEEL ITS HEAVY AND PAIN.. i seriously never bother to

voice out want i want and all.. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME ?? it's like i do everything according to your order.. you know ORDER ? i ask me don't come, i wouldn't dare to come. and when you ask me to come, i would fly down to see you. WHAT IS THIS ?! i really don't understand ! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU EVA !!

2011-04-15T11:28:00.000-07:00

Now, i couldn't express my sadness.. why haven't i immune to your attitude ? well, it's not the first time things happened. It's not easy to change bad personalities, i know. If you tried, its different. it takes a long time. But if you don't try, end up things keep on coming round and round, problem remain unsolved. Enough said. i wouldn't say so much anymore.. think about this. I know we shouldn't compare and count each and every deed that we've done for each other, but its a TWO way relationship. Ain't it unfair if one just keep on giving and the other just receive ? If one just keep on sacrifice for another? giving all the while, all the time ? I wouldn't say that you never sacrifice or give entirely. You did. But i gave more. and the reason being like this its just because i care, as simple as that. You would say that i always complain. Merely because i couldn't get what i want, what i hope to get from you. I couldn't always tell you that i want you to do this, i want you to treat me how. I know that the more i love, more hurt i will get. It is natural. and i got this from my friend, Grace. " and doesn't it humor you, the person who makes you cry the hardest and the person who makes you smile the sweetest are in the end, the same person." It IS indeed you're the one who makes me cry the hardest and laughs the merriest. but ain't its heartache to know that the one you care the most also makes you cry the hardest ? i mean why would the one that loves you makes you cry ? shouldn't he never want to see you cry ? why won't he be close to me when i'm heartbroken ? i know you did. i can say that its not enough. i can't be greedy too. wouldn't it be better if both sides puts on equal effort to it ? think about this please. i know you wont read my blog. or maybe you will. i don't know, but i just hope that you can think through this and really realize.. what's right and wrong, what should be done or not, what should be said or not. It really hurts by the way you say things to me sometimes and you didn't know that you've actually hurt me deeply.. I don't want to be the one to end up crying and couldn't sleep. Can you just love me more and treat me better ? Sincerely i'm just asking for this, others i won't mind, i don't need. All i ask of you is your love, care, protection and appreciation. I'll do mine as well.. After all arguments, i still love you as before. Nothing has changed. "Be a man, Do the right thing"

Trust is important

2011-04-10T08:22:00.000-07:00

Being in a relationship. Trust is very important. and not taking it for granted.

Once chances are given too much to forgive abused trust.. it will be like crumpled paper..

So, trusting each other is vital as well as communication.

and

i do trust you Edward Hiew.

I can be a little bit sweeter

2011-04-08T18:07:00.000-07:00

Finally, Thursday night was our choir concert, it was great ! we sang beautifully. Well done girls ! i love you all ! hahha.. now u deserve this .. a box of candy for everyone.. hahah..

And i can rest for a little while. But not too much ! Cause August i have two very very very very very important exam ( VVVVVIP) !! grade 8 practical and foundation jury exam.. argh. life. and time really passed like real fast ! sad.. i really need to start extra practice already.. Gosh !

All the best to all the seniors having their Jury exam next week. =) hahah

Seriously, i love everything of me now, more contented than before. =) keep the good work all the time woman =) hahahaha..

Candy for myself xD

Busy dizzy O.o

2011-04-03T04:37:00.000-07:00

Oh great.

i signed in just to say that i'm super busy with my rehearsal for my choir concert coming Thursday and rehearsal practice as a back up vocal to help my friend for her jury exam, finals are coming in real soon, and i've not started studying for it at all..

totally gone case. ='(

An evening with Bob Fitts

2011-04-01T20:29:00.000-07:00

I had this dream a few times.. in this dream.. i see a man standing in front of me asking me to come home and telling me that i'm home. I couldn't see his face cause bright sun were shining so brightly on his back.. He's as if an angel came down to me, taking me back home with him. I woke up with different kind of feeling, a very fresh feeling that I've never experience before. and yesterday, i finally realize that i know who is He. He's opening back my heart, touching me, talking to me.

" Here i am to worship,

Here i am to bound down,

Here i am to say that you're my God.

You're altogether lovely,

altogether worthy,

altogether wonderful to me."

"When you call out His name,

He will come and save you,

He will come and save you.

Lift up your eyes to Him,

you will arise again,

He will come and save you."

Give me some time to slowly learn about You.. I will hold on to my faith, I'm not afraid anymore.

I miss you my dear friend

2011-03-29T09:22:00.000-07:00

I HAD to admit that I MISS YOU.. seriously after so long never talk to you.. Seeing you like a stranger.. or even just a "hi , bye friend"... ok.. i had already LET GO of your wrong doing.. or even my sensitiveness.. I missed those moments when we were together.. and now i know.. WHAT HURTS THE MOST WAS.. BEING SO CLOSE..

Yes, i miss you, seriously.. Are we still friends like before ? I'm sorry, i had forgiven you..

21/3/2011 our 3rd anniversary ♥

2011-03-22T07:20:00.000-07:00

It's our 3rd anniversary. felt like going back to the same date but 2 years before ! early in the morning, i woke up feeling all fresh, happy and sweet. i wore white polo and the jeans we bought together ! haha.. prepared to go college, can't wait to see him soon around 3pm ! so i finished my class around 2pm. ready to drive down to his school to wait for him to finish around 3pm. aaww.. haha.. and yes ! he came out, and we drive home.. to his home.. haha

i parked at the usual place, and went up to his house to wait for him to finish his bath.. haha.. oops.. we had some private time talking and deciding whether to go only one place or go both place (Aquaria or Sasaki) so we decided to go both places ! wee~ so we walked all the way there.. not feeling tired at all cause we talked and laughed. holding each other, hugging each other. muax !

We walked to Aquaria first.. hehe.. well, it was our first time. so we were excited.. haha.. and and while waiting to buy ticket.. suddenly darling shouted "Aahh!" "PIRANHA feeding time 4pm !!" and i looked at my watch.. 4.05pm.. Aaww.. hahaha.. too bad la.. and i saw the staff holding a tupper ware.. inside there's a large bone.. =.= OMG imagine u drop inside.. HABIS !! ooh ooh so then we bought our tickets total Rm65.. lol.. kinda expensive actually.. hmmm.. nvm la.. we enjoyed !

well... we walked every places seeing different kind of fish.... and some really ENORMOUS FISH that u can't imagine how large they could grow ! OMG.. hhahahah.. well well, i cant tell all detail here.. it would take one whole to really type it out ! MORE PICTURES IN FACEBOOK !! hahaha..

and and there's a stall there selling ermm... those necklace which u write something on the rice and in it ? yeah.. darling say he wanna buy me one of those.. so he asked me to choose wad i like.. hehe.. i chose a tube shape with some flower cravings on the surface, the rice.. i wrote.. Edward is mine ♥ hehe.. with red color liquid.. silver necklace.. ohoh ! and its GLOW IN THE DARK !! hehehe.. i love it very much !! thanks so much darling I LOVE YOU !!

after finish walking, it about time we go SASAKI JAPANESE BUFFET !!! Wee~~ hahaha.. mommy helped me reserved a table already.. yeah.. we ate ALOT !! like ALOT !! hahaha.. SUSHI~~ BAKED CHEESE OYSTERS~ FISH~ UNAGI~~ ICE CREAM ~~ Wee ~~ from 6 something we ate till 8 something 9 ... WOW !! darling full till wanna sleep already... hahahh.. funny baby.. =)

After that we walked back to his house.. hehe.. and some private moment together before i had to go home.. =( i don't wanna go home la.. haha.. But we had awesome day darling..

EDWARD BELONGS TO EVA, EVA BELONGS TO EDWARD ♥ ♥ ♥

I LOVE YOU DARLING MUAX ♥

Smile, a perfect smile

2011-03-17T10:53:00.001-07:00

Keeping a perfect {SMILE} across my lips to hide away my stress and negative emotions.

All the stress, weakness, fragile, lack of confidence.... OH NO ! i should really get rid of all this !

i must face and take the challenge to improve myself.

hmmm.. that's more like it !

trying to be as optimistic as possible.

that's all for tonight i guess.

what i need now is a good night sleep {WITHOUT} any dream please..

making me restless seriously.

and i'm pretty sure i could handle this stress.

all i need is consistent practice and determination.

no {WORRIES} girl, you can do it !

Circle of life

2011-03-09T20:49:00.000-08:00

I rescued a kitten today.. he was cold and wet, lying beside the roadside. He called to me, if he didn't meowed, i don't think i will notice him. without any hesitation, i bring him into my car and drive home. i put him in the cage when i reach home. slowly touching him, but his body is getting cold already. i know he's gonna die any moment. i give silent prayer and hope that he will rest in peace. but tears still hit me. i cried. i couldn't help it. but i'm happy that i brought him home and he died in a clean and comfortable place. at least i'm there to accompany him before his last breath..

REST IN PEACE kitten..

BURLESQUE ♥

2011-03-05T02:18:00.000-08:00

4/3/11

I watched Burlesque at pavilion with my darling .

we were kinda late , we reached pavilion at the time of the movie start.. 7.15pm

luckily we still have seats but its first 3 rows.. but i wanna watch, so we bought the tickets..

haha.. just nice, the movie just started.

Wow... i love those girls man !!! they are SO HOT , SO SEXY !! they make me wanna dace !!

hahaha.. their sexy dress... ooooh,.. SLURPING ~~ hahaa..

I'm sure all the guys had transformed into werewolf ?? hahahah..

well, i do sneak a peek at my darling to see his reaction after a dance lol.. hahaha

he stunt la..

Christina Aguilera starring as Ali (Alice), she's just so hot !! and her voice is......

SUPERB !! i wish i can sing like her.. haha, i gotta slowly train myself lo.. ^^

but she's just so awesome. oh oh , and when she sang "Bound To You" , just so beautiful when she wore the green gown.. with her classic make up ! love her red lips !

oh oh and this guy !! his name Jack, in the movie.. he's one sexy hot dude !!

hahahhaa.. he likes Ali ! and when they both finally can get together , wow...

i LIKE the way he ask this question to Ali, " do you want some cookies?" hahahhahahaha

awesome ! hahaha lol..

She's so beautiful and talented. she's one of my role model.. hahaha.. wish to be like her.. =)

but of course i will just be myself =) haha

after movie around 930 plus, then we walked back to jalan alor for dinner.. ate dinner with Edmund also.. haha.. after that went back to his house to get my bag. then...... hahaha.. GO HOME LA !! hehehe..

You are my eyes

2011-02-25T01:09:00.000-08:00

There is this mandarin song titled "you are my eyes" , in the music video, the plot and most important details about it was, how the lead actor would sacrifice himself for the women he love.. As the doctor said he had a severe illness and couldn't live longer, he told the doctor to donate his eyes for his lover as his lover is blind.

On the day his lover finally recovered and could see the world, the guy already left this world leaving all the best memories he had for the last few weeks in pictures for the girl to see.. tears filled and she feels happiness within even though he already left her.. but she have his eyes, and because of his eyes, she could see how beautiful she is , how colorful this world could be and most importantly, how much he loved her..

I am really touched , i wonder what my darling will do if we're in the same situation.. All i can say is, treasure the one you love most and never let them slip through your fingers.. Love them with all your heart.. everything is wonderful and beautiful around you because you have their love with you.. thats what that matters..

I Love You.. thank you..

I need motivation

2011-02-21T08:01:00.000-08:00

I'm still quite blur with my future..

Well, i know what i love to do.

I love what i'm doing now , Music.

Music is my life, though every one that i came across each time,

would ask me the same question. "What job opportunity are available for Music?"

And every time i would answer , i would be a Piano Teacher or a Performer or even both.

I have started living Music in my life when i was 6.

Those years seems to be a piece of cake to me, i managed to score VERY well in exams.

As years passed by, i got confused. I didn't realize that i'm actually very weak.

I fought with myself, trying to accomplish what i want.

but i get defeated by myself.. so easily..

At the most important exam, i failed.

i failed not just the exam, i failed myself, my parents, my teacher, my dear, and friends that supported me.

I'm ashamed of myself. i struggled all the way to get myself up.

I'm doing it now. now that i'm in UCSI.

I get to study what i love.

I don't want to ruin this opportunity.

there's so much to do here..

i have two VERY IMPORTANT EXAM in August.

FOUNDATION JURY EXAM and ABRSM GRADE 8 PRACTICAL.

the jury exam is my key to DEGREE..

grade 8 practical is also my key to DIPLOMA..

I need motivation !!

I need guidance !!

I need myself to be whole and not distracted !!

I want my dreams come true !!

I need to be consistent !!

PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE !!

HELP ME PLEASE !!

But i know, NO ONE CAN TRULY HELP ME EXCEPT FOR MYSELF..

yeah, i knew it very well.

People can feed you, but if you don't open your mouth and start chewing it, you will never eat anything

I understand..

Eva Foo.. Please stay FOCUS and DISCIPLINE on your own FUTURE !!

CONSISTENCY and MOTIVATION !!

14/2/11 Valentine's day ♥

2011-02-15T02:18:00.001-08:00

Valentine's day ! after i finish class at 2pm, i waited for baby , cause he say he finish at 5pm =( so long.. but nevermind la.. get to be with him is all i ever wanted.. so i waited until 3 something , then i drove out of college to his school... and so happened i called him, and get to know that he's not at school ! he's at masjid jamek.. giving out flyers ??!! didnt even inform me.. ggrr... so i waited there for them.. Him, King and Ky.. lol.. from 4 something i waited till 6 something !!! gosh ! pity me man , i have to go round and round to avoid police for saman. !! in the end i couldnt wait anymore. i called him to say there are police. so they stopped and came take theirs bags.. baby went into my car.. together we go to his house..

reached his house.. we... erm.. he bathe then we together we walked to pavilion.. he said he wanna belanja me eat Manhattan Fish Market.. it was his first time , but it was my second time ! hahaha.. as we reach the restaurant, its full house !!! gosh , so we waited for 10 mins.. i think.. we got ourselves a place, settled down, read the menu.. so we ordered , 1: seafood platter for 2 person , Dory fish n chips and a Oreo Kaboom drink . woosh !! we talked alot.. sharing everything we had.. so these are the pictures of the food !! but oops ! i forget to take a picture of the drink, hahaha... nvm..

after dinner , we walked around pavilion, and HAH !! he say i can point at anything , and then he will buy it for me !!!! but too bad.. by the time we finish eating dinner , already 10 !! ggrr... so we just walked around and take pictures ! hahah..

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY DARLING !

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH !

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY VALENTINE !

MUAX ! ♥ ♥

3/2/11 to 6/2/11

2011-02-11T00:15:00.000-08:00

3/2/11 first day of Chinese New year

went to grandma house for lunch and gather around, tot that she will take us go bai nin at relative's house, but she never say that.. so argh.. whole afternoon sit at home watch tv.. SO BORING !! luckily Devon came by to kidnap me.. hahaha.. yeah, after he fetch his grandma to her friend's house , we went Mcd at pj for a drink and talking section. hahaha.. yeah. we had fun =) after that we tot of going to Melvin's house to kacau him but was raining heavily and he had to go back to fetch his grandma.. =( so he fetch me home first and head back. Aaww... =) hahaha

4/2/11 second day of Chinese new year

yet another BORING day at grandma house !! yeah, some relatives came, but its just so bored...lol.. so i watched tv.. watch tv... argh.. HOT and BORING !! i should have bring my lap top with me.. ggrr.. haha, but Devon asked me to go out tomorrow to 1u, cause Melvin will be playing piano there at the Garden Cafe, we planned to kacau him. and Melvin said he gonna play songs for me cause 6/2 is my BIRTHDAY ♥ ♥ !!

5/2/11 third day of Chinese New year

haha! spend morning time at home practice my piano =) then after lunch parents sent me to putra station. took putra to Kelana Jaya wait up for Devon to pick me from there. and we headed to 1u !!! weee~~~ then he drove back home first to pick up his mommy ! oops we gonna have dinner at the Garden Cafe with his mommy ! hahaha.. later , we reached and found a parking space, we headed to Garden Cafe, Melvin already started playing =) we sat at a table right behind the grand piano.. hahah.. we ordered FOOD !! i ordered ... spaghetti with hot honey lemon.. haha.. the spaghetti is perfect !! love it ! then Melvin started to play the song i requested "Fly me to the moon" hahaha.. then when its his break time, he sat with us and chat a while before starting again... he wished me Happy Birthday.. so early.. haha.. after we finished our food, Devon's mommy wanna go walk around , so we sat here till we feel like going back.. haha.. so we sat until around 9.. oooh.. haha.. we said goodbye to Melvin, and i went out to meet my parents, and Devon gonna go home with his mommy already =)

6/2/11 Fourth day of Chinese New Year and MY BIRTHDAY !!! yeah ~~~

i woke up early in the morning, drove down to jalan alor, parked my car and went up to Edward's house to meet him up, together we go to church. haha.. after church , we went to times square to buy movie ticket, "Shaolin" 1.40pm.. hahah.. we were very early.. so we walked around to look for his shoe, cause he wanna buy shoe.. but couldnt find any that he like in times square so we went to Sungai wang..

we stopped at Mcd for ICE CREAM !! yummy,, haha.. i eat vanilla cone, he eat twist cone ?? lol.. hahah.. after finish we went to this "Atlanta" shop to buy his shoe.. after trying and he did some "catwalk" .. hahah.. he is satisfied after asking me so many times "izit okay ?" hahaha.. after that we went back to times square bought a 100+ and we went into cinema ! wow, lucky we bought the tickets early cause its FULL HOUSE !!

hahaha.. the movie ends at 4 !!! in between Edward keep on looking at my watch.. hmmm... wad he trying to do huh ? erm.. cause we supposed to go to Aaron's house for open house cny party.. but aiyo, no need go so early right ? hahaha.. after movie we went to Aaron's house at midah... around there la lol. then we went up and eh ? why so quiet?? haha.. Aaron said they all went out buy drinks.. lol. ok lo.. i was really tired and hot, i wanted to sit down and rest for a while..

SUDDENLY .... lights off and they came out from room singing Birthday song holding the cake with candles.. hahahahahah... i was surprised !!!! i was stunt , couldnt say a word.. haha.. yeah, they bought secret recipe Tiramisu for me.. Aaww.. love you guys.. hahah.. so i made a wish, blew the candles and cut the cake !! .. and guess wad ? Bryan smeared the cream on my face !!! hahaha... ggrrr.. i knew it but i wasnt caution of it ! damn. haha.. i had to wash my oily face yuck ! so sticky.. hahaha.. finish eating the cake, we started to eat steamboat ! yeah~~

after steamboat , they started to play blackjack.. lol.. and i went on facebook to reply each and every birthday wish on my wall.. gosh ! almost 200 !! thank you guys.. haha .. after playing cards, they wanna go dota and yum cha.. so i followed cause i wanna have a drink and end my night properly.. haha.. so im happy.. yeah ~~

Thank you guys for the wish and surprise cake ! love you all muax

BLACKBERRY CURVE 9300 FOR SALE

2011-01-28T02:06:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps , take a look at this . i wanna sell this phone. its BRAND NEW ! SEALED in the box with 18 months of warranty. Accessories all included !

Price : Rm1000 or Rm 980

Kindly pm me if you're interested ! thanks so much !

oh oh, mail me. evafoo0206@gmail.com

Loves ♥

thank you so much

2011-01-20T03:04:00.000-08:00

to you ,

thank you so much for being there for me when i needed someone around.

your caring is good enough for me to feel warmth.

your presence made my sad day brightened up , and filled my loneliness .

you always found me whenever i'm hiding away from people.

thank you for driving me home when i'm sick. thank you so much.

i really appreciate it.. and, there are so many girls out there in this world .

I'm happy that i can be your best friend. Please don't feel sad.. =) i don't worth your tears..

Ps: you know what i wanna say =)

How do i look like with specs?

2011-01-06T20:01:00.001-08:00

That day on Christmas day, we were together with Bryan, i took his specs to try on n took a few pictures.. LOL.. hahah.. this is how i look like..

haha.. i think i dont suite wearing specs? lol.. xD

Pictures in Genting Christmas eve

2011-01-06T19:46:00.001-08:00

On the phone with Bryan

OOH!! we took picture with KHONG!!

oh no. some updates of 2010 =.= xD

2011-01-03T06:58:00.000-08:00

15/12/2010 & 16/12/2010

i was asked by my lecturer to go at The Curve, Garden Cafe for two days as a pianist there to entertain the customers. well, it was my first time, so i was very nervous the days before and trying to find as much songs i can play for that two days. thought its almost reached Christmas day, so i prepared some Christmas songs, pop songs, classical songs and so on la.. haha. so here are some pictures =)

It was fun although it was my first time, time passes REAL FAST and i didn't even realize it. I just play for 3 hours with break time that u like, drinks are free and im paid for it ! WHAT A GOOD JOB !! I NEVER REGRET LEARNING MUSIC ! ♥ ♥ ♥

24/12/2010

ITS Christmas Eve ! Me and darling Edward went to Genting to celebrate ! haha we had so much fun time there =) we went to the chinese temple first then only go up genting . lol. crowded with Christmas HAT !! hahaha.. darling bought two for ourselves.. we wore it and go everywhere, its fun to see it, cause ALMOST everyone is wearing it ! hahahah.. we went arcade too.. we only wanna play one game Ghost Squad ! the gun darn heavy after playing it my muscle also sore abit.. hahaha.. but we had fun ! we left around 5 something 6. COOLING WEATHER, though we were just wearing t-shirts and jeans.. hahaha.. here are some PICTURES !!!

Thanks darling for being with me ! I LOVE YOU ♥ ♥ this year 2011 will be even better for us !

New year resolutions xD

2011-01-02T04:35:00.000-08:00

I need new year resolutions.. a new year ahead.. setting some goals for myself =)

1) Get better results for new coming semester

2) Practice harder for coming practical exam in August

3) Be physically strong and fit to face my greatest challenge

4) Continue Loving Edward Hiew and appreciate our relationship even more ♥ ♥ ♥

5) Be a good girl xD

My baby will be sitting for his STPM end of the year. I know you can do it darling, have faith ya.

I will always be there for you when you're in stress. Love you muax ♥

New experience =)

2010-12-17T08:03:00.000-08:00

oooh! Last Saturday my lecturer asked me if i wanna take the job as a pianist in The Curve, Garden Cafe. woosh! I say ok hahahaha.. well its my first time ever perform in front of so many people! my lecturer say i can play any songs that i like , for example : Christmas songs, jazz, pop, classical.. wow.. ok.. so i prepared some pop, jazz, and Christmas songs.. hahah.. before wednesday i was SO NERVOUS!! omg cause my friends said its huge and alot of people there.. the piano will be located in the middle and tables surrounding me.. =.= OMG i was.. HELP ME! im nervous!! im scared!! hahhhaha.. so my darling teman me go, we took the free shuttle bus provided by Royal Bintang Hotel.. hahah. at 345 we went up the bus... lol.. suprisingly, only two of us.. so good! haha.. reached there d then i go search for the cafe as i have not been to there.. cause too far and i dunno how to go! lol =( so after i informed them, we went to walked around.. then we sat down and took pictures! eat ice cream yay~

i started work at 630... i play play play piano.... until im so concentrated that i forget to break =.= cause i can have 3 breaks of 15 mins if i play for 45 mins.. hahaha.. but i too absorbed into it d.. i played from 630 to 815.. so i rest for half an hour, and play for another 45 mins then can chao d!! woohoo! feel so nice and like VVIP! hahahhaha.. free drinks served.. i can order wad i like.. hahahah.. its darn nice! im gonna work something like this next time!! cause its what i LOVE to do!

this is the first day =)

this is the second day =)

hahaha! its a very good experience ! Had a nice day at the curve with my darling, Khong and my parents! what a wonderful day haha =)

ITS BLEEDING

2010-12-07T22:26:00.000-08:00

its really painful to hear you say that you're going out with another girl on the 25th..

from that moment i heard you said that, my heart bleeds..

because i already secretly planned a suprise for that day...

of course i wouldnt want to tell you about it.. cause it meant to be a suprise..

i tot you will have plans for me too.... but seems like you have nothing for me..

i kept it in my heart... didnt want to tell you that i actually planned something for that day..

i tried to forget about it... but everytime when someone talks about it.. those words are like knife cutting through my heart..

i no longer can hide it .. i realize i couldnt take it... i couldnt lie to myself pretending that im very dai fong..

letting you go out with her... friends even asked me why i never tell you about my plan and let you go out with her...

i told them.. it wouldnt make a difference.. because you already promise to go out with her..

but yesterday i couldnt help but to tell you about it.. cause my heart is aching painfully... very pain..

i told you... "actually i have already planned something for 25th.. but you're not with me.."

what makes me even sad is... you replied me " cant postpone? cant do it another day?"

this is even worst! you wan me to postpone a special suprise to another day because you're going out with another girl?

its christmas... i know you will say that 24th you're with me already.. but christmas is a date where lovers will go out together..

but you're going out with her... and you even can ask me this question" so you're going out with who on that day?"

do you know that how hurt i can be when you asked me that question?? sometimes i feel lik im damn stupid to plan this and plan that..

IT'S THE FIRST CHRISTMAS WE CAN BE TOGETHER, I'VE PLANNED SOMETHING, I WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU, AND NO POSTPONING AT ALL, AND I DON'T WANT YOU GO OUT WITH HER! UP TO YOU LAH

Stuck like glue ♥

2010-12-06T20:53:00.000-08:00

mmmm better

absolutely no one who knows me better

no one that can make me feel so good

how did we stay so long together?

when everybody

everybody said we never would

and just when i

i start to think they're right

the love has died

there you go making my heart beat again

heart beat again

there you go making me feel like a kid

wont you do it and do it one time

there you go pulling me right back in

right back in

and i know i'm never letting this go

i'm stuck on you

whoa oh whoa oh

stuck like glue

you and me

baby we're stuck like glue

whoa oh whoa oh

stuck like glue

you and me

baby we're stuck like glue

some days i don't feel like trying

some days you know i wanna just give up

when it doesn't matter who's right,

fight about it all night

had enough

you give me that look

i'm sorry baby

let's make up

you do that thing that makes me laugh

and just like that

there you go making my heart beat again

heart beat again

there you go making me feel like a kid

wont you do it and do it one time

there you go pulling me right back in

right back in

and i know i'm never letting this go

i'm stuck on you

whoa oh whoa oh

stuck like glue

you and me

baby we're stuck like glue

whoa oh whoa oh

stuck like glue

you and me baby

we're stuck like glue

whoa oh whoa oh you almost stay out

too stuck together from the ATL

whoa oh whoa oh feeling kinda sick?

just a spoon full of sugar make it better real quick

i said,

whoa oh whoa oh

whatcha gonna do with that?

whoa oh whoa oh come on over here with that

sugar stick sweet stuff

come one give me that stuff

everybody wants some melodies that get stuck

up in your head

whoa oh whoa oh

up in your head

whoa oh whoa oh

up in your head

whoa oh whoa oh

up in your head

whoa oh whoa oh

stuck like glue

you and me stay together

say, it's all i wanna do

i said, there you go making my heart beat again

heart beat again

there you go making me feel like a kid

wont you do it and do it one time

there you go pulling me right back in

right back in

and i know i'm never letting this go

there you go making my heart beat again

heart beat again

there you go making me feel like a kid

wont you do it and do it one time

there you go pulling me right back in

right back in

and i know i'm never letting this go

i'm stuck on you

whoa oh whoa oh stuck like glue

you and me

baby we're stuck like glue

whoa oh whoa oh stuck like glue

you and me

baby we're stuck like glue

whoa oh whoa oh stuck like glue

you and me

baby we're stuck like glue

disappointed

2010-11-26T21:09:00.000-08:00

i dunno why.. whenever i have something going on. you sure cant go or u dun wanna go or u have something to do or you tired or u busy..

lots of reason

never once participate in my activities..

you make me so sad

so disappointed

so emo

make my day turn bad

or when u promise to come already

last minute u will say not coming

how would i feel?

i feel extremely bad and awful

every time whenever u have any activities going on

u invite me

i will always try to go

i will try to participate in

but when i invite u to any of my activities

you sure cant make it

why?

i dunno why

just felt lik i should know your things

and u dint need to know my things

its unnecessary?

is this wad u think?

u make me feel lik im not important

lik u don wanna know part of my life

and i must know part of your life

u make me feel lik its ok if u turn down my date for others

its ok if u dun see me

lik im not special enough for u to be gan jiong to find me or date me or anything

what am i?

im freaking sad now

im freaking bad mood

freaking emo

go away

Finally..... im DONE!

2010-11-26T20:10:00.000-08:00

finally after all the stress.. and now its all gone. YEEPIE!

its been a very difficult and hard work..

cause of no teamwork, dependent, argh.

all also can do their part well.

i mean as in do all the research beforehand and prepare it nicely la..

all also last minute. present also no good d

and when being asked question, all also cant answer

all also i see u u see me

no one wanna voice out and talk

and then what?

i have to answer la

i mean yeah of course i wont be rugi la

cause i gain experience and knowledge

but but arent they suppose to be the same also?

they think wad? this is still secondary life?

everything spoon feed and no need to cause?

surely there is someone that they can depend on?

yeah right! go on like this you will die in your degree year!

all also slacking around

when asked to do things , all tak semangat

everything do last minute

dun wanna plan well beforehand

also know that your own english not good de la

give u read an article also got problem

present like shit

but NO INITIATIVE at all!!

always want ppl to find u and tell u wad u should do

'whereas YOU are the one should find out wad u should do and how to do!

but never!

never do that before!

if you still dun wanna improve your english and speech

you will die going up

next sem i would not team with difficult ppl

dun wanna stress out myself

PLEASE LEARN YOU LESSON!

i doubt it though!

im enough of this already!

wanna change or continue like this its your choice

cause its not my road to success

its your FUTURE!

GOODBYE!

Chopin Desire for Love

2010-11-16T06:53:00.000-08:00

the movie is about the desire for love of music, human and family.

what is love? about a simple " i adore you " ?

or is it more than that?

sometimes love can be very simple or very confusing.

but human needs love, without love, life isn't complete

or maybe to some human they can survive without love.

but to me, without love, life is dull and purposeless

As said, " Love yourself in order to make someone else love you "

people without self-love is worthless i may say?

so i say, LOVE is the greatest thing of all

love every single thing u have now, people around you.

most importantly

LOVE YOURSELF ♥

Busy busy busy.. GOSH!

2010-10-25T02:22:00.000-07:00

I never thought that i will be that busy.. hahaha.. just finish my midterm not long ago, i hope i've done it well cause some i did not prepare well.. moral studies.. =.= "utilitarianism" GOSH!! hahahahaah.. no more moral after this sem but but malaysian studies coming up next sem!! GGRR.. should be boring.. but no choice la. .hahhaa..

im enjoying myself despite all the busy-ness and hard work.. practicing like a crazy women but its all my favourite songs! currently learning Chopin's Revolutionary Etude. WALA!! very hard yo.. but i love it.. the hardness is making it more interesting and challenging for me!! woohoo~ i love the practical skill and musicianship skill class.. its AWESOME! we have fun in the class and we sing along.. hahhhahah. .. everyone enjoys it!!

well well, i wont be able to blog everyday due to all the craziness going on at college =) oh oh, and i love to watch all my senior's performance. last week friday i went to a concert in my college, they are celebrating Chopin and Schumman's 200th anniversary, so selected students perform both composer's pieces.. its just so WOW! hahahah.. i want to be like them! i will and i will aim for it! yahoo!

ok la.. so long for now.. gotta prepare for LOTS of assignments for psychology and moral.. =.= darn! group and individual.. GGRR!! and FINALS!! i want to score well in all my music finals!! keep going yay! you can do it Eva! xD

I need an answer..

2010-09-19T21:52:00.000-07:00

What is ♥ ?

New Life, New Environment, New Goal

2010-09-12T22:02:00.000-07:00

Its been a great fun after starting my life in uni, meet alot of new friends.
My schedule are packed with 8 to 5 time base. hahaha.. no extra time for nonsense stuff!
LUCKILY, i still have two days off earlier so i can go meet up my dear and buddies!

Its a new life, new environment and new goal, where i have to adapt myself and set my goal on accomplish my dream. hmm.. Music is not as easy as i thought, there are so many things that i don't know. Its kinda like i have to start from the very bottom, so its really hard. and the competence here are VERY high!! OH MY GOSH! its like you have to be the extra outstanding one to climb the top of it.. =( ok nvm.. at least im doing something i LOVE.. hahahaha.. every hardship worth it..

KEEP IT GOING!! YOU CAN DO IT!!

EXCITED!! XD

2010-08-31T09:36:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOSH! tomorrow is my first day to University!!

hahahahahaha.. very excited la.. i had long rot at home..

so so, gosh! i hope i have time to blog about my everyday life at uni la! hehe!

oh ya, today i had an awesome dinner with my darling at permaisuri..

we ate western food.. erm.. mostly grilled black pepper chicken chop la.. either u wan it with rice, spaghetti or fries..

VERY full! thanks darling for the meal.. =) we come here again some other day ya..

as im starting my first class tomorrow, i don't know where is my classroom..

i have to go there earlier to ask for my classroom and get my student tag.. LOL..

and my class is from 10am till 11am ONLY.. =.=

well, im glad that i had three girlfriends from my own class, tomorrow we will crazy the class ..LOL! XD

oh ya, btw, i have theory exam on the 6th.

so yeah i will be busy for a moment before exam..

lots to memorize.. =.=

so long.. hahhhaha..

Guten Nacht

♥ you darling muax =)

Confession of my love ♥

2010-08-09T22:43:00.000-07:00

Edward Hiew , I love you more than anyone else.

We been through all ups and downs, sweet and sour, finally it came to this day and it will still go on.

21st March 2008 onwards , my life filled with colors, beautiful rainbows.

It also brings me tears and heart breaking, but it is all the pathway of knowing you better, more and more.

But in the end we still love each other despite all the heart breaking .

A relationship shared with someone you love, it should have acceptance, endurance and forgiveness.

Together we go through every single hardships and happiness.

My heart will still go on with you. Although i wouldn't know what happen next, but as long as i get to be with you, as long as i can keep this love with you, I'm blessed, happy and contented.

Edward ♥ Eva ♥

Together we share our LOVE~ ♥

Start blogging !

2010-08-08T20:58:00.000-07:00

My darling want me to blog cause he say he wanna know what i did every day.. LOL... hahahahaha.. he say one line in Fb doesnt let him know what i did for the whole day.. well its true.. haha! aiya.. i too lazy to blog d.. moreover pass few weeks my P1 got problem.. cant even log in .. ARGH! but now ok d so i blog la.. =)

Yesterday i was not working, early in the morning woke up at 930? ssssoooooo sleepy.. cause i slept at 3 something.. aiya nid to get up also.. cause going out with my ji mui Fiona =) hahha.. and lucky i go check my phone, if not i wont know i have to go fetch her last minute.. =.= !! so i went out fetched her d, straight go jusco lo cause we wanna eat Mcd breakfast.. but front gate blocked d.. lol.. dunno wad happened. SUPER long queue to another entrance.. why in the morning so many ppl go jusco??!! lol.. so went one big round just to get to the back door.. finally it opened again.. yeah.. find a parking den rushed down for breakfast.. BUT!! ='( Mcd no breakfast!! i wanna eat my hash browns.. sigh.. so we ended up eating in Old town.. had my double toast and hot chocolate yummy~ hahhaha.. talk talk talk non stop.. den time to watch movie! yay~ hahahahaha

OH MY GOODNESS! hahhhha... cause i bought B sitting.. so its the second from the front.. =( im sorry baby.. if i dun buy, we cant watch d.. but quite ok la the view.. lol.. y u will neck pain , i dun have? hahha.. and the movie was AWESOME!!! MUST WATCH!! VERY COOL!! hahhhahahha..and and the Sokka?? i couldnt recognize him , but then after a few angle, Im sure that he is Jasper!! the one from Twilight Saga Jasper!! woohoo~ he act in airbender .. LOL~ hahahahha..

After the AWESOME movie.. we went in to Padini Authentic shop.. i saw a red pants and a hirt very nice, so i took it and go try.. hahhaha.. turned out, the shirt TOO transparent == and the pants... cutting abit weird?? but i love it.. 50 % la!! and and im in love with a surf pants from bodyglove.. ARGH! very nice ar... but expensive lo... Rm 150 wor... not discounted item.. sob sob.. after that Fiona went to buy her formal hoe.. lol.. just for use in Lab.. hahahaha.. later our stomach growling d.. craving for lunch.. i asked her wanna eat wad she say she dunno... LOL! so we drove out lo... tot wanna go Ts de.. but i say we go Pudu eat lunch first.. BUT BUT!! all the nice restaurant closed.. LOL.. y sunday closed ar?? so end up eat KFC.. hahahhaha. damn full la!

then my mom called me faster go home cause later have guest at home.. lol.. have a ceremony at home.. den dinner with them.. so rushed back home.. hahahhahaha! after that we dinner at Restaurant KK near alam damai.. we ordered Sting ray, curry mutton, curry chicken, vegetable, spicy prawn and more! LOL! around 20 of us.. hahahahha.. eat like SIAO! some more i already filled with KFC! finish the dinner cant even walk.. feel lik vomiting d.. lol.. hahahahah..

Loads of pictures to upload.. need some time man.. hahaha..

Living Dead

2010-08-03T01:28:00.000-07:00

Its been quite long since i blogged.. been busy preparing for my exams and audition.. Finally i get to pursue my dream.. but sometimes i questioned myself.. Do i have the consistency of making my dream come true? or is it i'm finding excuses to go on my life blindly? I should really think throughoutly so that i won't be wasting my own time and money..

and recently many things happened.. i really don't have mood to say anything about it.. and its really getting on my nerves... my heart almost stop beating.. i'm like a living dead.. but i have to be strong to go on with my life.. but... i'm too fragile inside.. i'm scared.. i really don't know what to do..

SO LONG..

BYE..

IF THATS WHAT YOU WANT...

German language started~

2010-06-11T07:26:00.000-07:00

Woohs~! yesterday was my first lesson of German at ICLS near Kl Plaza. Before that i had dinner with Issac at pavilion food court. Ate You Tiao set c hahaha.. NICE~ Issac say I so healthy =) LOL..

after that i walked to ICLS around 645 . Hoo~ the classes there quite complicated =/ room 14 its lik behind the walls ish creepy where you have to walk to the construction site.. yuck dusty dirty n scary..

haha.. but too bad the lesson can't stand on time cause a few students haven't reach yet.. and the teacher was very impatient already.. i think we started around 720 or later than that. SO.. my German teacher is Andre Rohde . wow.. hahha.. i don't know how to describe him.. lol.. but he seems interesting BUT never ever be late for class cause for your information, Germans don't like people who are not punctual without giving any reasonable excuse. LOL.. its expected cause he arrived at 5 something when the actual time for the class is 7!!

he started off with the alphabet ;

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z , and a few symbols which keyboard doesn't have.. where can i download those kind of alphabets specially for German language??

and the numberings LOL!! hahaha.. COOL i can say =) but then something really trouble is the Artikel - der/die/das which means every single thing have to differentiate it in the category of Masculine, Feminine and Neutral.. EVEN FOR OBJECTS!! how the heck i know whether the door, table or window is masculine or feminine or neutral??!! HAHAHAHHA...

well.. i learned how to speak a bit of simple sentence,

Guten Tag, mein Name ist Eva.

Jch bin neunzehn Jahre alt.

Ich komme aus Malaysia und wohne in Cheras.

Good day, my name is Eva.

I am 19 years old.

Im from Malaysia and i live in Cheras.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.. Good!! so from now onwards i must listen to German songs, watch German dramas.. o.O i wonder how will it be.. I bet it will be fun!! LOL.. so long peeps =)

Fun day, Emo day

2010-05-10T20:01:00.000-07:00

May 7th 2010

had fun swimming with my buddies at Khong's condo.. darn it! im sun burned! damn it have to lock myself inside the house dunno for how long... ish! wasted my energy..

hahaha... look at those pictures we took during our swimming section.. damn funny.. Fiona the funniest! ahahaha... LOL! i really dunno what to write.. damn tired.. sleepy... enough then.

Emo la.... ish duno y... lazy go out, emo at home, totally lost my phone. what the heck! although i miss my dear damn much... ARGH! this could a lesson to learn for future... if i were to go Germany to further my studies... for how many years i dunno la... how?? LOL...

some ppl cant sleep cant eat well when they emo , sad , or heart broken.. but i eat EXTRA alot.. hahhahah.. mom keep on saying me.. '' dont eat so much la... later fat at places shouldnt be fat .. yee...not pretty dy lo?? later Edward dont want you ar..'' i was like.. LOL.. He will dun like meh?? how he wish i eat more.. hahahh... cause when im with him i dun eat that much when im alone or with family.. i just eat EXTRA less than normal when im with him... i also dunno why.. why ar?? hhahahaha LOL...

Darn! that day i ate 4 containers of cheese pasta.. CONTINUOUSLY! hahahhahah... damn fat wei... dunno what happen to me la... then when celebrate Mother's day at Kepong, we ate Bah Kut Teh.. guess how much i ate?? LOL! i ate one big bowl of rice, then mom gave half to me.. finished, i ordered another claypot of the famous Dry Bah Kut Teh with a big bowl of rice.... THATS IT!! i finished it on my own!! OH MY GOODNESS!! imagine how i eat... hahhahhahh.. SIAO!! lol.... Im terrible right..

LOL! enough with this post already... hahahhha..

I Love You Edward

You make my heart Smile~

2010-05-04T19:47:00.000-07:00

I still remember how you make me smile,

How you make me feel beautiful.

The first day ever u asked me for a date,

how current shocked through our nerves.

The way you say you miss me,

can't sleep keep thinking of me.

Been through laughters n smiles,

sweet and honey,

sadness and sorrow.

And here you are with me now for so long,

Hope our love continues.

Our love shouldn't be compared with others or pass,

giving spaces and respect it.

when you're sad or disturbed,

I'll be right here with you.

and most importantly- mutual trust,

respect and loyalty.

I cherish and appreciate our present moment,

and look forward to our future.

Thanks dear for being me,

and i know that you always love me,

I'll always love you too.

Muackx

43 days more.............

2010-04-29T05:39:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU LA BABY...

CAN'T WAIT FOR ANOTHER MONTH LA...

COULD STAND NO LONGER!!

WHAT LA THIS ISH!!

I WANNA TELL YOU SSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOO MUCH THAT I

I WANT YOU NOW SSSSOOOOO MUCH!!

SOB SOB.. I WANT YOU HERE NOW... DARLING.. SOB SOB..

Accepting the reality is difficult?

2010-04-28T00:27:00.000-07:00

I watched '' Shutter Island '' with Aaron, Mun Fei and Fiona.. Me and Fiona was afraid to watch at first! but the two guys insisted.. aiya, so why not right?? it would be better than asking us to watch '' The nightmare in Elm street '' ! i rather die then to watch that movie... CREEPY!! I wouldn't be sleeping if i watch that!

so basically the movie is about making a person to accept the fact that

he's what he is.. LOL! i don't know how to explain la..

Edward Daniels - Andrew Laeddies

is kinda confusing at the beginning... but in the end when the truth reviled.. yeah.. the movie's awesome.. Leonardo Di Caprio sssssooooo handsome!!

had lots of fun with them la!! PHARNIE people... hhahaha...

we lepak until at night.. ate MCD at bkt bintang.. lol... hahahaha

And when's the next outing guys?? hahahah

oh yeah thanks hong heng babe.. WE LOVE THE JCO'S..

hahahahah

I guess i'm Active again

2010-04-13T23:49:00.000-07:00

Woosh! it's been such a long time since my last post! No wonder Edward has been asking me..

''What happen to your blog ar?? no story already??'' LOL! i'm now freaking free, guess i can be active once again...

Well, i should get it starting as a new life new page new story from here.. haha..

but one thing for sure now.. Edward, you've been away from me for 18 days i guess..

i miss you dearly.. terribly.. crazily..

i'm making my days without you useful and full of happiness instead of loneliness..

oh but heavens knows that i cant even be away from for a second!

and i appreciate Saturdays and Sundays more than ever..

cause thats the days you'll message me..

I LOVE YOU , EDWARD..

-EVA-

I've always listening to Paramore's The only exception and Vanilla Twilight...

YOU ARE THE ONLY EXCEPTION

you love me as what i am..

you're the brightest star ever shined on me...

OH Darling i wish you were here...

Arms around me...

Thank you for being with me.. and i appreciate every single moment shared with you..

The Lazygang's taking good care of me...

especially Mun Fei.. until he lai yeh..with SCANDAL..

haha... but i am really having fun with them.. hanging around..

and Sarah replacing you.. haha.. gonna hang out with her soon after my piano exam..

right on the date of her birthday.. Wee~

take good care of yourself darling as i will be too..

finish my vitamin C.. drink more water and rest more..

when you come back.. i'll help massage you..

nurse you back.. MUACKX..

my baby..

2009-09-13T19:46:00.000-07:00

i lost my soul...im being abandoned...
u said time off...
i dunno wad happen...
u said u wan more time for yourself...
jz bcoz this few days i wanted to sms u more den usual...
this is wad i get in the end...
u said u just need a time off...
well...
im leaving...
cause i dunno wad i can say anymore...
for the whole day u nvr sms me...i oso dun care...
but jz this few days wan to sms u only...
u also say so much...
because of little things...
and u get it back at me triple times...
why do u have to treat me lik tis...
do i deserve being treat lik tis?
i try to accept all your wrong doings...
all ur attitude...
tats is wad i should do...
but u....
wad u do...
what u do!!!!!!
i've been crying,hurting,heart breaking for so long
do u even care...
do u even know...
i already dun wanna expect much from u....
because i know i cant expect so much from u
have u ever i thought of yourself...
have u ever think of me...
tuesday u will be all good if nothing happens...
but if yes...
im the one who get it from u...
WHY!!!!
i will leave u as ur request...
if tats really wad u wan after all we have been through together

Learn to forgive and you'll love life better

2009-08-05T19:44:00.001-07:00

I, too, come from a broken home. My father was in debt and my mum, besides having to raise me single-handedly, ha to deal with his debtors and settled his loans. We were shunned by people when we ran out of money. I hated my father then.

Thankfully, with God's blessings both my mum and i managed to lead better lives after struggling for many years. I realise that if i had been bitter towards my father and those who shunned us, it would have made me even more miserable. I have to learned to let go and forgive.

I should realise that my parents have at least provided me with the basic necessities- providing a roof over my head, clothed me and given me an education to be where am i today. There are so many children who have less than what i had. Some do not even have food on the table.

It is easy to blame and judge, but we are all human beings with flaws and shortcomings.
Be at peace with yourself and those whom you loathed. You will find calmness and solace within.
Someday we will be in their shoes, and hopefully our children too will be able to accept us the way we are.
Be proud that your experiences during your growing up years has given you the determination to make something out of your life. I hope all those who hold grudges against their parents will try to forgive and reconcile.
We only have one mum and one dad in our lifetime.

Ps: a post from my friend

2009-07-27T18:09:00.000-07:00

I love everyone i know

sorry...

2009-07-27T18:03:00.000-07:00

i know u dun lik me go clubbing...

im sorry...

i was really just intend to have some fun...

not hurting myself coz i know u will be vry sad...

i think i was just trying to .....

i dun know...

i was being protected tat night...

im fine...

im safe...

just want to forgive me...

although i had said last time tat i wont go...

this time i really meant it...

coz i know u r just trying to protect me frm harm...

thank you dear...

i love you...

18th of July

2009-07-19T20:11:00.000-07:00

its St John's IU day n Campfire...well...im exicted not bcox im participating in any event...but bcox i get to join back high school mood...so so high school tat i hadnt gone through since january?time passes fast wei...but i regreted i didnt managed to take pictures...but only one...the only one for the whole entire night...u will see...haha...

its 230pm...almost la i think IU started...haha...we get to walk around the Muzium Telekom...well its very antique...those phones and machince...u will be lik O.O.....haha...Edward was our tour guide...ater tat we watched a slide show about the theme..."past ,present ,future"

cool huh?and get to see mun fei as the "jumper" in the slide show...haha...

after touring...1st performance was......dance...ahh...i didnt video it...it was impressive...too bad...i forget to charge my phone...errgh!!

after dance ...play ice breaking game...me,jen yen,mei yee and the othes in one group of RM 2.20....haha....and then the group have to go out one by one to introduce themselves...three o us lik..."wad de?!"..."dunno wad to say la...!"haha...cause we r lik the eldest there...not schooling anymore...so kinda arkward la...haha...i was so shy...ahh...

live band ...very damn cool wei...but too bad cant enjoy the jazzy love song wit Ed..hmph....after everything ends ...they pack up...i sit around to wait for them...to go for the campfire...

Campfire....mun fei walked me up to the school...so...Edward....u owe him one lunch...HAHA...when into registarting...mun fei say la...."hey VVIP....Edward's girlfriend..." i was lik hey dun be lik tat.......later Lionel..."She is Edward's girlfriend...VERY VERY IMPORTANT PPL"...i gave the same reaction again...i surrender la....haha....paiseh...and walked through gadgets...well i know its prepared by Edward...haha...luckly...i managed to slowly walk through and looked at those past day's things...very creative and beautiful....nice work dear...haha...

but i cant take picture...stupid phone...haiz...

i sat there...look around...and i saw u...haha...u came to sit beside me...haha...miss you...u've got duty...aikz...i wait for my parents to arrive...well...haha...event started....very nice...the performances are very cool...and your dance...haha...and the most frightening special performance....oh dear...u get hit on the face...poor dear...well u r the pirate...wad to do??haha...it ended very well nice...

see the only picture i took for the whole entire night....

wow finally...

2009-07-13T20:18:00.000-07:00

since so long i hadn't been uploading my blog...
TOO busy working already...my working hours's like shit!
but anyway nevermind lo...guarantee got extra OT money de...
hmm...its my third month of work le...although there are some unhappy time...
but thats working life ma hor...you work anywhere also like that de la...
see how much tolerance you can make only...
HAaa......i still have 9 months more to work before i enter college...
i dream course...music...in UCSI...just so mear my house...thank goodness...haha...
dont have to drive till so far and caught in the jam...
unlike my old buddies..wai xing pei yuh tse ling...driving to taylor's and kTar's....aikx...
i pity them la...but then...hey guys...i miss ya lots...espeacially TSE LING!!!!!
hey ling ling...do you still wanna go D2Y??tell me if you still plans to go...ok?i will find ways to go...but i scare cant...cox of working...ahh...

Sorry guys...

2009-06-24T20:26:00.000-07:00

my blog real dead...
im so busy...wit my exams...
now it finally ended...i think i can have the time to blog again...
but i doubt it...cause of working...lols...keep on working for hours...
come back home also sleep lik dead log le...so...i will update back my blog ASAP...
or maybe just upload pictures...too long nvr go out..i dunthink i have much to tell through pics...
lols....TOO BUSY...thx guys...

Me and You...

2009-05-26T20:17:00.001-07:00

2009-05-26T19:36:00.000-07:00

very tired...vincci now having sales rime...

people just come out from nowhere..

buy shoes buy shoes...

ahh...!

so fast..its going to be end of May...

time passes by real fast...

without i even noticing...

whenever every end of month comes by...

i will refresh what i have done...

something useful?

something unnesscesary?

somthing memorable?

something regretful?

yesterday i was chatting with my best fren..

asking her how is college life...

how is there study...

meet any new frens...

how is the lecturer...

somehow i felt myself left behind..

because all of my frens are studying now...

but im still working...

i really feel regret...

but although i can still continue my college next year..

its just seems that im one year left behind...

thinking of entering college next year...

im abit worried....

worried about my dear...

i wont have time for him...

i dont know how..because of the course that i have chosen...

Music in UCSI...

this course requires almost every single moment that you have...

pratise and practise everyday...

its just not that simple...

so how..i wont have time for dear anymore...

thats the part im worried about...

efort,time and practise are vital in music field...

just like thoe days of Beethoven...

their just crazy for practise...

maybe i exaggerate...

but no one really undearstands...

unless one is from music stream...

"so dear...put more time when we can be together...

even now i only see you once a week or two week once...

somemore later you exam...one whole month...

so..i hope you understand...

i miss you lots..

love you"

MiSs YoU LoTs....

2009-05-15T03:58:00.000-07:00

DeAr....

I MiSs YoU LoTs La....
MiSs YoUr KiSs...
MiSs YoUr HuGs...
MiSs YoUr WaRmTh...
MiSs YoUr EvErYtHiNg....

ThE MeMoRy Of YoU SlEePiNg BeSiDe Me ThAt NiGht....ItS JuSt So WoNdErFuL,So SwEeT...
DeAr DeAr....LoVe YoU...Im HaPpY WiTh YoU....FiNaLlY I FoUnD YoU....YoU BrIgHtEnEd Up My LiFe WiTh AlL YoUr SpArKlEs.....Im AlWaYs BeInG MySeLf WhEnEvEr Im WiTh YoU...
YoU ArE JuSt So So ImPoRtAnT To Me....Do YoU KnOw ThAt??

You Are The Night,I am the day.

You are the sky,I am the clouds.

You like things spicy,i like them sweet.

You like sunset,i like sun-rise.

This is who we are,

We're different,it's true.

But i know what i like,

I like me with you.

* Edward & Eva *

My Darling is my sweet patootic,

the lover of my life,my youth and age.

My heart belongs to him and to him only,

Our bond so strong.

You Brightened up my day with your smile,

when you whisper'i love you' to me,

my lips will hang with a sweet smile,

thank you for always loving me.

Love You,Miss You

Muackx!

Working at Vincci

2009-05-07T04:36:00.000-07:00

Wow...its my 7th day of work only....haha...very tired leh....vincci working working shirt is orangy-pink...gua...haha...not bad la....new working environment...make new frens....i tell u...does frens working at vincci...all siao de....can laugh lik non stop de....haha...im having fun also....but when working time....u cant imgine the storeroom man......must climb up till de ceilling just to reach for the shoes....wad de....haha!!!!vey tired man...muscle all aching when i work at vincci.....last time at padini authentics also dun have lik this....but the salary in vincci not bad lo....quite hing for a part timer lik me....but i work long term de la....till next year april...yeah...work few more months den i can buy my dream things dy...laptop....camera...haha!!!Happy working...

My dear...

2009-05-07T03:56:00.000-07:00

Do you stil remember what u said last time? you say you are not commited to me...but now....you just love me so so much...i like to be around with you...you make me feel comfortable...make me feel safe...i can sleep soundly on your shoulder without a need to worry about things around me....you've already be part of me...my life....although i know that things are impermenant in this world....but i will always make an effort to be with you....i love you so much...its my first time loving someone so sincerely....so pure and true....if i only have last 3 mins to live my life....i would say....I LOVE YOU...i really do....we have been through sadness...happiness...misunderstanding...lots of problem....but in the end we still get back together...im happy to have you....

And now...im happy that my parents knows about you....and they like you....Muackx...how long have we been together?One year...one month... 16 days...we should really appreciate our love...present moment...mending present moment well will eventually bring in the future...so dear...dont need to worry or even plan for our future....things will eventually find you themselves....i love you dear...may we be happy always....

tired day///

2009-04-28T20:17:00.000-07:00

early in the morning follow parents go down to kl....ahh....den to damansara....to kl again....i pissed off dy la...i say...drop me at pavilion or bb plaza!haha...so go eat lunch with edward...lik tat only la...nothing much only la...at night at home...cant sleep...so camwhore....haha

actually i cant see at all...cause its my mom's spec....haha...near can see abit la...but when far...ahh...faint...cant see at all...blur...but i dunno how i manage to aim properly la...haha...not bad huh??haha...

25-04-09 to 26-04-09

2009-04-28T18:59:00.000-07:00

Last saturday, me and my parents went to Malacca for a 2 days 1 night trip la...haha...realy in the morning...started our journey at 7am...reached there at 9am...i went to eat our favourite chicken ball ball rice...haha...very nice...after that we walked around the street..named Jonker Street...took a picture of it...

As we walked around the street..my dad busy taking pictures of buildings...my and my mom busy having fun taking pictures of each other....haha...

after taking all the pictures....we walked to a building...er....looks scary...like haunted house...

Cendol time...went to eat the famous cendol...very nice....too sweet for me...

after that we went to our car...suddenly....i looked to the sky and i saw.......SOMETHING NEW ....something long n round...i think....

thats the MENARA TAMING SARI....heard of it before??first time see...haha...lots of people queue up...i wonder how much is the entrance fee...it must more expensive then the ride on EYE OF MALAYSIA just right next to the beach....haha....well...i dont bother to waste money to sit any of it...somemore queue so long ....

we went to checked in to our hotel...at Ujong Pasir...HOtel Coastal PArk...blue colour building...haha...suites the name....really tired man....bathe then straight away fell asleep....haha...later on dinner....wanted to eat satay celup at the famous shop...but we reached there too late...queue up again...so w decided to eat the shop next to it....not bad also la that one...

my mom took picture of me driving..

HAHA....hmm....drove to the bridge side....nice view wei....its the smaller version of EYE ON MALAYSIA....hmmm....

the blue light shine on us....my mom say got abit of sexiness...haha...swt....

see this picture??very CUTE right?!the way they put the lights...very cute...haha

Well...later at night we went to jonker street for pasar malam...not bad...crowded with people...me n my mom bought ourself a ring...

Thats the saturday night...haha...sunday we went back to kl dy....

My happy day....

2009-04-20T02:18:00.000-07:00

Today...after i bought my books....i went to new way to book room for sing k...with my dear...

haha....i went into the room first while waiting for him....its only both of us...haha....we were having fun time together...singing....solo....duet....haha...very fun....and when he sang the song named "I don't want to miss a thing"....wow.....so "lam" ar me....hehe....then we take pictures....

sang till 5pm....we pay the bill and left....walk around Ts...then only walk to hang Tuah LRT....hmm....love you dear....muackx muackx....hehe....now im more confirm that my love is you....LOVE YOU!!!

Lets us be happy...

2009-04-13T07:01:00.000-07:00

Te quiro mucho...

you know what i mean...

Besame...

you know what i mean...

Bebe...

my baby...

One year and one month...

not too long not too short...

but needs alot of love to maintain...

Be happy...

that we have gone this far...

with happiness...

with tears...

Appreciate it...

with gratitude...

with true heart...

with love...

Love yourself...

no one can do it except for yourself...

9/4/09

2009-04-09T23:54:00.000-07:00

if i were to cut my hair short....it will look something like this....haha...funny look....maybe i dont suite short hair....i love my long hair....

had a great day with my frens!!wai xing and pei yuh....my best frens!we went to low yat red box..after that around 5 we reached pavilion...haha....me and pei yuh went to Forever 21 to check out some dress....VERY NICE!!!!we took several dress to try....haha....two girls gone crazy in the fitting room....busy changing and taking pictures....but too bad....the pictures is not with me....its with pei yuh's camera....AHH!!!!never mind....later ask her sent it to me....

later wai xing called us....say we have to go....aikz....so end like that lo....pei yuh drove us back....happy happy....

when i reached home....after i bath and packed my things already....i went to the balcony.....i was looking at the floor...."why is it so shiny?"and then i looked up....and found out that the moon is just above me....shinning at me....hah.......so nice so beautiful.....so i took a picture of it....its so darn nice.....i wish you were here with me so that we can watch the beautiful moon right above us....as we look up in to the dark sky.....stars are everywhere....and thats where we will find the only two shiny stars that represents us....love you always....

Im Sorry...

2009-04-06T23:38:00.000-07:00

im sorry...im sorry... im really sorry!!!
what had happened to us....
why are we like this...
why is the temptation so strong....will it break our relation...
why do we have such strong desire....
what happen!!! I just need to see you!!! I want to see you.....
you cheated on me....i cheated on you....i know thats not what we want....
WHAT ON EARTH IS GOING ON TO BOTH OF US!!!
whats going on....i cant take it....i cant do anything at all!!!
i love you....i really do...

I MISS YOU

2009-04-06T00:18:00.000-07:00

I miss you so much....i want to see you....i want to be with you....
you've already be part of my life.....part of my body....part of my everything.....
all our memories....sweet...happy....bitter....sad.....we went through it together....
hand by hand.....i know we could.....i need you to be with me.....

I Love You...