i lost my soul...im being abandoned...
u said time off...
i dunno wad happen...
u said u wan more time for yourself...
jz bcoz this few days i wanted to sms u more den usual...
this is wad i get in the end...
u said u just need a time off...
well...
im leaving...
cause i dunno wad i can say anymore...
for the whole day u nvr sms me...i oso dun care...
but jz this few days wan to sms u only...
u also say so much...
because of little things...
and u get it back at me triple times...
why do u have to treat me lik tis...
do i deserve being treat lik tis?
i try to accept all your wrong doings...
all ur attitude...
tats is wad i should do...
but u....
wad u do...
what u do!!!!!!
i've been crying,hurting,heart breaking for so long
do u even care...
do u even know...
i already dun wanna expect much from u....
because i know i cant expect so much from u
have u ever i thought of yourself...
have u ever think of me...
tuesday u will be all good if nothing happens...
but if yes...
im the one who get it from u...
WHY!!!!
i will leave u as ur request...
if tats really wad u wan after all we have been through together

Learn to forgive and you'll love life better

I, too, come from a broken home. My father was in debt and my mum, besides having to raise me single-handedly, ha to deal with his debtors and settled his loans. We were shunned by people when we ran out of money. I hated my father then.

Thankfully, with God's blessings both my mum and i managed to lead better lives after struggling for many years. I realise that if i had been bitter towards my father and those who shunned us, it would have made me even more miserable. I have to learned to let go and forgive.

I should realise that my parents have at least provided me with the basic necessities- providing a roof over my head, clothed me and given me an education to be where am i today. There are so many children who have less than what i had. Some do not even have food on the table.




It is easy to blame and judge, but we are all human beings with flaws and shortcomings.
Be at peace with yourself and those whom you loathed. You will find calmness and solace within.
Someday we will be in their shoes, and hopefully our children too will be able to accept us the way we are.
Be proud that your experiences during your growing up years has given you the determination to make something out of your life. I hope all those who hold grudges against their parents will try to forgive and reconcile.
We only have one mum and one dad in our lifetime.


Ps: a post from my friend

I love everyone i know

sorry...

i know u dun lik me go clubbing...

im sorry...

i was really just intend to have some fun...

not hurting myself coz i know u will be vry sad...

i think i was just trying to .....

i dun know...

i was being protected tat night...

im fine...

im safe...

just want to forgive me...

although i had said last time tat i wont go...

this time i really meant it...

coz i know u r just trying to protect me frm harm...

thank you dear...

i love you...

18th of July

its St John's IU day n Campfire...well...im exicted not bcox im participating in any event...but bcox i get to join back high school mood...so so high school tat i hadnt gone through since january?time passes fast wei...but i regreted i didnt managed to take pictures...but only one...the only one for the whole entire night...u will see...haha...

its 230pm...almost la i think IU started...haha...we get to walk around the Muzium Telekom...well its very antique...those phones and machince...u will be lik O.O.....haha...Edward was our tour guide...ater tat we watched a slide show about the theme..."past ,present ,future"

cool huh?and get to see mun fei as the "jumper" in the slide show...haha...

after touring...1st performance was......dance...ahh...i didnt video it...it was impressive...too bad...i forget to charge my phone...errgh!!

after dance ...play ice breaking game...me,jen yen,mei yee and the othes in one group of RM 2.20....haha....and then the group have to go out one by one to introduce themselves...three o us lik..."wad de?!"..."dunno wad to say la...!"haha...cause we r lik the eldest there...not schooling anymore...so kinda arkward la...haha...i was so shy...ahh...

live band ...very damn cool wei...but too bad cant enjoy the jazzy love song wit Ed..hmph....after everything ends ...they pack up...i sit around to wait for them...to go for the campfire...

Campfire....mun fei walked me up to the school...so...Edward....u owe him one lunch...HAHA...when into registarting...mun fei say la...."hey VVIP....Edward's girlfriend..." i was lik hey dun be lik tat.......later Lionel..."She is Edward's girlfriend...VERY VERY IMPORTANT PPL"...i gave the same reaction again...i surrender la....haha....paiseh...and walked through gadgets...well i know its prepared by Edward...haha...luckly...i managed to slowly walk through and looked at those past day's things...very creative and beautiful....nice work dear...haha...

but i cant take picture...stupid phone...haiz...

i sat there...look around...and i saw u...haha...u came to sit beside me...haha...miss you...u've got duty...aikz...i wait for my parents to arrive...well...haha...event started....very nice...the performances are very cool...and your dance...haha...and the most frightening special performance....oh dear...u get hit on the face...poor dear...well u r the pirate...wad to do??haha...it ended very well nice...

see the only picture i took for the whole entire night....

wow finally...

since so long i hadn't been uploading my blog...
TOO busy working already...my working hours's like shit!
but anyway nevermind lo...guarantee got extra OT money de...
hmm...its my third month of work le...although there are some unhappy time...
but thats working life ma hor...you work anywhere also like that de la...
see how much tolerance you can make only...
HAaa......i still have 9 months more to work before i enter college...
i dream course...music...in UCSI...just so mear my house...thank goodness...haha...
dont have to drive till so far and caught in the jam...
unlike my old buddies..wai xing pei yuh tse ling...driving to taylor's and kTar's....aikx...
i pity them la...but then...hey guys...i miss ya lots...espeacially TSE LING!!!!!
hey ling ling...do you still wanna go D2Y??tell me if you still plans to go...ok?i will find ways to go...but i scare cant...cox of working...ahh...

Sorry guys...

my blog real dead...
im so busy...wit my exams...
now it finally ended...i think i can have the time to blog again...
but i doubt it...cause of working...lols...keep on working for hours...
come back home also sleep lik dead log le...so...i will update back my blog ASAP...
or maybe just upload pictures...too long nvr go out..i dunthink i have much to tell through pics...
lols....TOO BUSY...thx guys...