Get me through

Well, this is the first year 2nd semester for me. Full of challenges. New aim and expectations.

Motivations.. i need constant motivations.. keep me going, keep me moving forward.

With all this self expectations, it's either i'll gone crazy or .... couldn't think of it though.

and all i turn back to Him is : Joshua 1 :9 and Philippians 4 : 6-7

He will always be by my side. Praise God.

Go away storm

How fast, it's the last week of December 2011.

come to reflect about the whole year,

first half of the year was totally awesome

but never on the second half of it.

It was disastrous.

It was hurtful.

It was heart breaking.

It was.. It was...

unspeakable pain..

All i want is a good start for 2012.

though everyone thing that 2010 is the end of the whole.

nah, no such thing for me. i don't believe such nonsense.

i just want this disastrous storm to end it here now before

a new year starts !

New resolutions, new goals, new challenges, new self.

i'm gonna do something which i have never have had the confidence to do .

Dancing, swimming, push up my

self esteem.

i don't give a damn on how other people comment on me.

i'm me i myself.

Coming on the next semester will be my degree sem 2.

i'm excited already.

oh but please God, grant me with constant boost throughout.

don't want to be hangat hangat tahi ayam :o

ok.

that's it.

Promise me after this storm, give me back my sunny days.

i missed it so much.

i wish myself all the best and good year 2012 ahead !

Loves, Eva

Hello December :D

我爱的人，他死心了。

回想起和你认识的那一天，真的很美好。

还记得我们电话聊了三个多钟吗？真的很开心的。

我们从来都没有想过，会有相遇的这缘分吧？哈哈

还记得那天晚上，我对你哭诉了很多不开心的事。

你就是一直在我身边照顾着我。我真的觉得很温暖。

你会一直和我说话，逗我开心，弄我笑得像傻婆一样！

渐渐地，你就一直叫我傻婆了。哈哈

之后我们选择了在一起，告诉你，我真的是很开心的。

我们每晚都见面，看戏，喝茶，吃饭，甚至是只是坐在车里都爽。

你在我生活里占了地位，见不到你时，心情很不爽。

看到你时，心情顿时变得非常好。

这是所谓的热恋中吧？

我对你任性，对你发脾气，都只是很想你重视我。

爱你，是千真万确的。

想你，是日夜思念。

你对我的细心照顾，你对我的每一样事情都是那么的真心。

我知道的。

可是，因为我的自私，我毁灭了一切。

我把你弄得伤痕累累，我没有珍惜你，我太过分了。

让你在黑暗中猜想我的心，让你睡不着。

现在你不要我了，我顿时觉得天都塌了下来。

原来，你比我想象中还要重要。

我无时无刻想起和你的时候。

我无时无刻想起你对我的爱

我知道你曾为了我而哭，我的心很痛。

对不起，是我笨，是我不会珍惜你。

我不想再错过你，可以再给我一次机会吗？

现在那么决心不要我的你，我好害怕。

好害怕我永远都不能和你在一起。

不要这样好吗？

再相信我好吗？

再给我一次机会好吗？

对不起，我真的很爱你。

这来那个三个月是我最开心的日子。

真的。

我不想让它就这样没了。

我们能继续一起傻傻的吗？

到底是什么一回事？

在爱情里往往都是很复杂的吗？

就不能简简单单的吗？

我好累哦，孤独的一个人面对所有的哀伤。

你所谓的承诺我看不见。他已遗失了很久吧？

你真的是错的人吗？为什么朋友都劝我不要？

我还能相信你吗？我很怕你再次伤我第四次。

可是又知道自己是非常爱你的。好矛盾哦。

你可以不要在承诺吗？我不敢在期望。

现在和你一起的感觉一样好，我们继续这样吧！

以后的事，以后再说吧。

Scared, but still love.

When i had take up the courage to let go, to move on, to slowly learn how to mange myself without you around, things suddenly change, change AGAIN ?

you came back to said that you regret the decision you made. you treated me extra good, you talked to me like old days, you care me more, you're just different.

but i've made up my mind. nope, i wont go back with you until you're really settled down. until you finish your exams your stress, until you really know what your heart wants.

Nope, i know what you're thinking. I still love you very much. It's just that i have to protect myself first, for i'm afraid if there's a fourth time of history repeating again.

I'm very happy with our current relationship. As a best friend that could go back to lovers or whatever it is. i'm happy with you now. it's unexpected. i know. we could get back together later on. dont worry.

Be yourself :)

Creating the path that i want to go as a successful musician.

argh, but it's not as easy as i thought it would be :(

i'm getting a little bit unmotivated..

i'm getting too stress up :O

but that's what i love to do !

"Life is not about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself"

"life is about the choices we made"

oh well, hold onto yourself Eva, i'm sure you can do it.

you've already proven that you can succeed with distinction when you're determined and put effort. :D